Once again, a New Yorker cartoon sums up my feelings.

[barbtries]

2. i have to have phases.

phases of doom scrolling, gathering up the news, trying to believe it even though it's SO BAD it defies belief

phases of talking about it to friends and family, posting to sm, trying to get people to wake up to reality

phases of just sapping, playing games, watching true crime stories, and looking elsewhere

phases of interacting with friends and family for the joy and the love of it and keeping all the noise out of it

etc.

I have therapy about every 6 weeks or so to make sure i am not crazy. love my therapist

I work.

I try to have very serious conversations with my children and grandchildren so that when i'm not around anymore they will have no doubt about where I stood and that they are the biggest why for that. That it is love that drives me.

I hope you're feeling well Peggy and strong for the treatments awaiting you, that they are completed promptly and your outcomes are all great!