I'm not sure how to title this post. Re: Anxiety.

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60. You are right to feel anxious. In 2015 I tried to get my husband to move out of the US

We had made arrangements--buying property in Panama--in 2005 to get out because of Shrub. After our house burned down here in 2007 and then Obama was elected in 2008, we sold the Panama property to use that money in rebuilding here.

The orange a$$hole worried me, though. I thought we needed to get out if he was elected. But almost 10 years had gone by and health wise and marriage wise we were in a different place in 2015. My husband refused to go forward with an offer to purchase a condo on Bonaire in the Caribbean. After the orange a$$hole was elected, I suggested that we at least get off the mainland, maybe move to Hawaii? No. He wouldn't go.

After he died in 2018, I thought about trying to get out myself--maybe to France (where we had friends) or even Portugal. But I put things off because of my senior dog and then COVID. That was the end of my dream to move abroad.

I turn 75 next week. I could--financially--move abroad. But I don't have the energy to do it alone any more. I've tried to get both my sons to think about getting out, and they've resisted. So, here I am.

My way of dealing with this is to be aware, but not dwell on the fact this orange a$$hole is destroying the country. I will only travel in the US for the time being. I don't watch the news. Just this morning I ordered annuals for a number of my patio/porch containers. So I will garden, read, and carry on.

I can't change what is happening. It makes me very sad. I hope you find a way to divert yourself during this very disturbing time.