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72. This is not therapy

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It is a burgeoning police case. To be clear, I am filing it. But it is about a violation of trust too serious to ignore. I am filing it solo, because I do things solo.
I trust EarlG and elad to use this responsibly. But if someone at this end has or continues to barge in and exploit it, I will go to the most serious type of person in the Indian military who doesn’t think Pegasus and bullshit about sedition are good because they mean you have less time for very real security risks.
The point of military intelligence is not to spy on women and sell stuff. It is not left or right.

It is dereliction of duty. Just because you spy and I can’t prove it, it doesn’t mean that I am a loser and lazy.
The constant catty jeering of the actually malpracticing or the huffing and puffing of the pseudo pure who still did all this fails to get those of us working in the middle without purity (I drink and get high. The time I spend glumly surfing I consider an investment I am
making in restoring my old rights.
I will not accept anything substandard. I should not have said it in a way that the message got lost given how easily riled up and thin-skinned I am and always will be. It is why I never use force. The people on whom force and clunkiness work are best case - and they are who got us here. If you respond to force and clunking or malicious contemptuous manipulation..)

I respond to Yasha and Robinson because they would never be irresponsible. Nor Ketcham.

I am a MeToo complainant who doesn’t want it to fall by the wayside. Where these bloody universities and hospitals need a harsh crackdown is wrt having thrown away women’s rights to the extent

I don’t need anyone to like me. I am usually confused if people do as I am clunky if there isn’t a material or at least meaningful immaterial thing like a police case.

But I was shocked by this. I couldn’t understand how anyone had lost their mind enough to

It is not people with guns and so on that you should fear or febrile yelling about ..I had descended to that.
My mentor at least - I will unambiguously support him. Good God, he watches TED tech. So what? I watched “Never been Kissed” and “Easy A”..shrug.
But he never took it lightly nor his lab. I didn’t like them because I showed up and was immediately treated like I had some disease and then a smidge of peer support by this awful person who called me “pathetic” (rankles to this day..I never see that word without getting angry. I am pathetic? And those stupid LLMs and agents are awesome?)
I am not going to back anyone getting a thick skin like Usha Vance. Why should people be ridiculed and bullied and have brainless people condescendingly support when they groom you for this shit. Selling out publicly funded science to those mediocre parasites of Google and Facebook and later Palantir and Musk.

But I have the instincts of a majority group. I was never entitled or an asshole. But I don’t think this notion of the meek inheriting the earth by figuring out how to sway people. I get the headspace and the anger. I would never minimize it. But it requires finesse to file a police case and make it stick.
I just didn’t want to be disliked as an Arundhati Roy fan since I would find it impossible to defend a worldview or set of strategies I don’t even hold.
I think I see something in my feed.
I have enough intuition about DUers to tell how they behave.

It is not perfect. These things are not meant to be perfect. It would not mean it doesn’t work If you found many errors that too in this.
Yasha is cool..

My -people who worked adjacent and in the lab- they weren’t bad. But it is useless to go and work there and be a tyrant with me.
You don’t need lie detectors.

I have faith in the least malicious and sane people to immediately understand a situation.

The knuckled daggers are the frauds. To this day this has been nothing but a strain and a drain on me. I can’t stop thinking.







And I don’t need information

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How does someone who presumably works seriously first go and dally with those boneheads and lie constantly and mock people who take things at face value.
I don’t know what the fastest path is to ending this without forgoing anything. I am already paying and it won’t take 30 years to finish this paper.

I have to go work. But I will get full utility out of it for myself and people or things I support since I am not an island.
Why am I being mocked? These geniuses are all your people.

I am a neutral party. But I will come out and admit it. It sounds totally lame to say “if you cost me this heavily, I will make sure you pay commensurately”.
If you can get away with this, the very thing that defines Trump and Bill Kristol - /shamelessness or superficial correctness, will kill us all. I am team Harry Harrison’s “Make Room! Make Room!” but with buggy ai and rapists and fascists (Kristol). My friend Yasha seems to predict nukes (Trump). Either way its Hobson’s choice.
Evgenia is correct about stasis.

Yasha gets stuff very fast and he communicates well.
This is an obvious advantage for me.

I have been moving left all my life, but when the well heeled very ugly brats of those types want to attack pensions and old people like my parents and barge in with some catchphrases they learnt..they force me into lib drag.
Because the left which is barely hanging on is too drained and then some Stanford tyoe learnign to parrot stuff makes me feel cavalier and hopeless.
I will enjoy this crackdown. If..
I know when I see it. Can’t hide who you are ever. Its the one thing you cannot learn except through watching, observing and experience
Watchint what people share voluntarily not wjat you creepily mined and tried to turn into a valid method and it won’t be your brats who lay down the law but the people affected like me.

I like the host of this forum (though the minute I admit to liking someone their feed gets wacky..never thought to admit things thay will not be understood easily).
I ..yuck..Tyler Durden..
I see a lot of potential thrown away for cheap worthless tosh.

I will finish this paper and go to my mentor but trisolaris (ie the shittiest humans in this city) already violated trust over and over and are creeps and frauds.
I am going to the police with support where I find it.

I can’t stand shallow people gettint to lord it and play games. That is so dangerous.
And well..okay maybe it is not hate.
But i had s cousin like that. He could understand that i am not an airhead.
Just preoccupied.

With how it works rationally up to a point and then goes wacky. Evgenia is correct bht it applies to the tactics of the left and liberals and


I don’t like Tiktok or celeb culture.but on affordability I would never trust rhe tactics of people who throw womens rights away nor rhe environment. Those are linked though bosses get neither.
I liked my mentor’s wife. Neither of them treated me like a joke. But I am not lazy or crazy. I do support my political guesses over theirs. You cannot throw away limits to growht and so on.
Clunk. The side thst is demonized snd discounted is actual Greens who woukd make life so much easier all aroubd if you understood js.
I don’t mean doing things jnsanely

But a worldview this decoupled from reality in complexity and
The only way i can express that is say on May 17, 2026, 14 years and eight months or so at least, that the whole thing needs to be shut down.
Earthquakes or Domino’s? Earthquakes imo.
I am not on any team but Team Me! I am Me First! Well some.. but you are starting like Musk to deplete the least offensive in that regarf as you always saw such people as weak

I am not. Watch it. Anymore losses to me like these and you are strangers and stupid ones at that. I am going to the police as is. You will end up in prison if you continue to treat me like shit.
Just shut this down.
I am not in the market for your worthless garbage.
I just try to commune with my friends who get its seriousness.


I will delete it daily.
And post only when my head is unquiet.





Was inappropriately in a thread where a beloved DUer/cancer survivor was posting. At least my social behaviour for something where it is unclear if it is open web or cryptography, civilian (legit? Competent? Real? Non scammy?) science or military or spook (legit? Competent? Real? Non scammy?) or small business (ie EarlG/elad) is unclear

Though bitter about my mom. My mom should still be with us. She should have stayed on metformin though it was not formally an adjunct therapy then and therefore not rubber stamp friendly.

She had an excellent oncologist (pretty much the only person I trust in any real crisis even outside oncology locally) and a very competent nurse. But we lost her as I was wasting time trying to get my own modafinil use rubber stamped by a parasitic (now private equity owned hospitals). Poor data hygiene and gossip are ott locally and I am going to the authorities the day I can to file harassment and stalking allegations in data science, cybersecurity (corrupt “hatting”), ai, cryptography, any local entertainment or gaming, psychiatry etc.
I was so out of it. I diy my mental health with marijuana without any rubber stamps.